At Peace Part Two

<3 Peek-a-Boo! <3

The total still stands at £118, so I hope to see that raise by tomorrow's blog please :)

. . . After being show the equipment we are escorted by staff and family members to the top most roof via a lift and a metal ladder. Only Julia, the abseiling instructors and myself were allowed up the metal ladder to the very top. As Julia is petrified of heights it was agreed that Julia would go first and with some encouragement she went over the edge and although she squealed a little on the way down she succeeded in her aims.

Whilst Julia abseiled it gave me time to absorb my surroundings and the views. Considering we were in the centre of a very busy London, it was quiet, tranquil and relaxing, all you could hear was the wind swirling by, all you could smell was the sweet drizzling rainfall and the sights were life affirming seeing everyone living equally the same either letting time pass them by or savouring life and the memories that come with it.

This moment filled me with a sense of peace that I have never felt before and it still remains with me every day. It felt like all the grief and unnecessary guilt that I have been carrying with me everyday of my life, including losing Alex, my Great Aunt Maud and my Granddad, was released from me, it felt like I was being unchained from the pain it all caused to leave me with the happy memories and to encourage me to live like they did. All three of the above lived life to the full no matter what they were facing, I only wish I knew how much they would mould me into who I am today.

Soon it was my turn to go over the edge, I was so eager to get going that one foot cheekily stepped onto the face of the wall before I was actually allowed to, before I knew it I was walking down the wall and it was exhilarating I forgot how good it felt to be doing something I love again. The shoes I wore for this sport weren't entirely appropriate as they were only plimsolls really, so I was only one or so metres down when I started to lose my footing against the wall a little. so when I regained my footing in a ridge and muttered to myself "Why are you shuffling down the wall like a beginner? Time to start jumping I think" and with that I loosened the slack on the rope that I controlled and pushed away from the wall . . .I had also forgotten how much quicker and easier this technique is and how much more enjoyable it is to do :)

Sadly I was nearing the ground once more and I was suspended a couple of metres above the ground for a couple of photo opportunities then finally . . . I landed and I landed on my feet for the first and only time. Normally whenever I do structured climbs or abseils (with harness and support ropes) I always land on my bum!

I could have done that all day! :)

Word from Alex
I could be in a room full
of a thousand people -
Yet I'd still feel alone
without you <3

(Jack 4 Sally)
      XOX